11rl0902imr - Don't Let Them See You Cry

CALL UNTO ME, AND I WILL ANSWER THEE AND SHOW THEE GREAT AND MIGHTY THINGS THAT THOU KNOWEST NOT.

-Jeremiah 33:3

I was at an all time low in my life. I was injured physically and that caused me to start to be injured in many areas of my life. My spiritual life was non-existent. I did not want to talk to God. I did not want to talk to people. I was apathetic in every sense of the word. I was angry, and for those who knew me that was not a characteristic that I have ever had much of in my life. I was careless about pretty much everything: church, school, family. I forgot what it was like to cry. All I knew was my grudge toward life because I could not do what I wanted.

I became very hard-hearted. I had a heart of stone you could say. One night I was laying in bed, and I was at one of my lowest points. I began to cry out to God. I had so much bitterness and saddness built up, and all I wanted to do was cry it out. The thing is I felt like I seriously forgot how to cry. I was so hard-hearted. I began to ask God to help me cry. I got louder and louder as I prayed. I started to sing alloud as well. God softened my heart and tears began to flood my eyes and roll down my cheeks. God helped me cry! I cried out my bitterness and anger that night. God filled me with happiness and relief. I was refreshed with God's presence in my life.