I was always in the so called "cool" people group but i was only in it cause i would do things that were not me and say things just to sound cool.  One time i got really drunk trying to be cool and i loss my virginity to a girl i really didnt care about.  My life was flipped after that night,  right after it happened i walked out side and prayed for at least a half hour asking forforgivness and just disgusted with myself.  I vowed never to have sex again unless i loved the person with all my heart and all my soul. The party scene is not for me any more i always end up being a guy i hate and i cant live with myself when im living a lie.  Its a hard battle but GOD helps me pull through it everyday and if it wasnt for my youth group i would be lost.